Emunah: Our Faith, God's Faith

Today's Morning Minyan features "Beautiful People" by Aly Halpert.

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Transcript

00:00:04:00 - 00:00:40:24
Speaker 1
All right. Hi, everybody. Nice to see your faces, your names, your picture on your zoom screen. Even if I don't see your face. Happy Wednesday. I'm going to set up a little bit straighter here, and I invite you to join me in doing that. If you're sitting and if you are not sitting, if you're whatever position you're in to just make it such that your spine is elongated and aligned.

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Speaker 1
Vertebrae on top of vertebrae such that your head can imagine being held up by like a little golden thread to a golden balloon that's kind of pulling it toward the sky, stretching you toward the sky, giving you more space in between each vertebrae in your spine. And again, I guess if you're lying down, imagine the balloon getting pulled horizontally so that, you're not, like, inadvertently doing a like a zombie sit up in your bed, your head being pulled toward the ceiling while the rest of your body lays flat.

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Speaker 1
And if you're, like, hearing this later on the train or something, and you're standing to just let that, aligned, elongated posture start from your feet all the way up and take a nice deep breath into your belly.

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Speaker 1
And release. And feel your shoulders relax. If you can. Take a moment to sort of shake or roll out your neck gently moving all the different directions that a neck can go. This little ball and socket situation here, which we're so lucky. That humanity evolved to be able to do this with our necks, and to be able to stretch gently.

00:02:08:00 - 00:02:33:06
Speaker 1
You know, sometimes I'm jealous of the owls who can, like, turn their heads almost a full 180 degrees and take a few more deep breaths here, exhaling and just feeling the morning living in you and you living in the world.

00:02:33:09 - 00:02:52:15
Speaker 1
I'm going to wrap myself in this, Tallis. You are all invited to imagine yourself wrapped in under this one or under your own. And take a moment actually, if you want. If you don't have a or even if you do, you can wrap your arms around yourself in a kind of hug. And as we say, the blessing. Give yourself a little squeeze.

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Speaker 1
This morning. Baruch, I don't know, I, I, I, I have them a share kitchen, a women's whatever. It's eventually today but it's it. Give your shoulders a little, little squeeze, little massage. Hi there. Hi there. Ancient. Ancient love.

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Speaker 1
Presents with me always.

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Speaker 1
Oh, dear. That's horrendous. Oh, no. Guys should have done this before you jumped on.

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Speaker 1
Oh, dear.

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Speaker 1
Oh, dear. No. Oh, guys, I'm very sorry. But you know what? Let this allow this to be a metaphor for all of us as I tune my guitar. Go ahead and think about what it is that you need to get in tune with this morning. And if you want to share, go ahead and share. Oh. Tune up. Oh yeah, oh yeah I like that's what it's like when you crack your back and hear all the little cracks and releases something and it's just like, oh thank God.

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Speaker 1
Last night this was completely fine. And I swear, maybe it's the weather.

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Speaker 1
Somebody else had told me Mercury is in retrograde, which I honestly don't really know what that means, but apparently it's an explanation for everything that's not exactly as it should be.

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Speaker 1
And any conflicts you're having with folks at work or in your house? Oh, it's just Mercury in retrograde.

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Speaker 1
And if any of you can explain that, I'd be very happy to learn something. All right. Susanna. But can you explain why that is somehow a, like an explanation for technology failing and, you know, not having conversations or communication in the way that, you know, like you want to your best self. Susanna by the way, for anybody listening later, it says it looks like Mercury is going backwards from the Earth because it's on the far side of the sun.

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Speaker 2
So if you're standing on Earth and the sun is between us and Mercury, we're all going around the the sun and the at the in the same direction.

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Speaker 1
Okay.

00:05:33:04 - 00:05:54:00
Speaker 2
But because it's on the other side, it looks to us like it's going backwards. Okay. So that's one piece of it, the other that the other piece of it is that, yes, it's astrology. So, you know big grain of salt from for me anyway. But so the controlling spirit is Mercury, which is he was the trickster god.

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Speaker 2
Okay. And so everything having to do with travel, communications, technology, is subject to his pranks. So, so so it's like, you know, if something goes wrong like that, I do find myself going. Mercury. I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry. Oh my.

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Speaker 1
God. So it's not even. It's not even like, a sort of karmic. Oh, it's just, you know, this is just what happens because of the electromagnetic forces being drawn in some weird way. It's like we actually imagine a, I wouldn't say demonic, but we. Trickster. Trickster is a good word. Sort of, playful trickster, Greek god named Mercury, aligned with the planet.

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Speaker 1
Right. Messing with us.

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Speaker 2
Right.

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Speaker 1
All right. Great.

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Speaker 2
Yeah.

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Speaker 1
I would love to see the Venn diagram of people who say rationally, you know, I don't I don't believe in God, but I reference Mercury in retrograde all the time when things aren't going right in my life. All right? I mean.

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Speaker 3
Yes.

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Speaker 1
Like, I'm so rational. I don't believe in God, but like, oh my gosh, Mercury is totally in retrograde. I mean.

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Speaker 2
You can also think of it sort of like a dream, okay? I mean, meditate, it helps you sort of interpret or, you know, just pause and pay attention. Like if, you know, you have to go to O'Hare when Mercury is in retrograde, you give yourself an extra 20 minutes. Right? Okay. And you might as well do that all the time.

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Speaker 1
That's true. That's very true. Whenever I whenever I make a special effort to get somewhere early, I'm always glad that I did. And then I'm like, I should really do this all the time and somehow.

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Speaker 2
Write.

00:07:36:12 - 00:08:03:08
Speaker 1
The best, the best plans. What is it? The road to hell is paved with good intentions. Yes. Anyway, all right, here we are. You know, I have lots of things to learn with us and do this morning, but let's let's begin with a little bit of singing. We'll do this. Oh. Where did. All right, we'll do this tune from, the Rachel Goldberg taught us way back when.

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Speaker 1
Way back when? Here, let me make it a little bigger on my screen so that you can see it a little bit bigger and share. Let us.

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Speaker 1
Let us rise to meet the day.

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Speaker 3
Morning light shining through my window. Across my pillow.

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Unknown
Clear and bright.

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Speaker 3
I wake up in the morning, give thanks and laugh again.

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Unknown
Cause I have the strength to rise.

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Speaker 3
Oh, Any less than,

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Unknown
oh I, I became, I, I was and I had to be.

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Unknown
This mighty Beth and, rabbi.

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Speaker 3
And we went on to,

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Unknown
Beth and,

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Speaker 3
I'm honored to have, grateful. And I, as I said.

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Speaker 1
Before, you living spirit of the world, you have returned my soul to me this morning in great and great compassion. You have faith in me. You have faith in me. Great is your faith in me to live this day. So I'd be very curious to know, as you're starting your day wherever you are in the world. What do you need God's faith in you to do today?

00:09:57:04 - 00:10:19:10
Speaker 1
I love, I love that it's such a, an unexpected turn of phrase. Robert and Natasha, your faith is great. And we're taught that faith, you know, emunah like belief against, you know, sometimes against, against rationality is a a part of the spiritual life, actually, you know, like rational. Yes, of course, rationality is. But then also not being cynical.

00:10:19:10 - 00:10:36:15
Speaker 1
And so having faith is actually really it's, you know, having faith in people, having faith in God, having faith in nature, having faith in, you know, the sun will come out tomorrow. And this is not about your faith. This prayer is about God's faith in you.

00:10:36:18 - 00:10:53:26
Speaker 1
The person saying this, this little, this little prayer, Rabbi, in Winnetka. So yeah, I think that's a good place to start every day as these words invite us to do. What is it that I need God's faith in me to do today?

00:10:53:29 - 00:11:27:18
Speaker 1
And with that. And with that, well, we will do a little bit of study later. So I'll say this. Now we can say this together if you want. Baruch Atar, I don't know why. Hello. Hey. No matter how them I share kitchen over mitzvot, levity, venue last soak. But Torah. Blessed is the one creator and sustainer of all of us who shows us the path to holiness and teaches us to immerse ourselves in words of Torah, which we will do momentarily, which we'll do momentarily.

00:11:27:20 - 00:11:37:01
Speaker 1
All right. I kind of was beginning to feel a little Ali Halpert morning. So. So, we'll do with this tune for ashtray.

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Speaker 3
Ashtray? Josh van ashtray. Our favorite. Yes. I smell better. Oh, yeah.

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Unknown
Hi there. Little fat Sal.

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Speaker 3
Makes me want to change.

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Speaker 1
The keys so I can be all in the same active. Let's see if I put it here. What happens? All right. It means it'll be lower at the beginning, higher in the middle, and fine for all of us.

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Speaker 3
Sri. Yosh. Yoshimi trails. Maybe. Yes. Ashtray us, maybe I. Oh, yeah.

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Unknown
I'm a little fat, Sal. I sing.

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Speaker 3
For you.

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Speaker 3
I sing for what is holy and is true. I sing for, creation, for life and liberation. Every day I know I stray your.

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Unknown
Shells, baby. Check. I stretch, baby tough. Oh, yeah I lay low pass hell, ashtray.

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Speaker 3
I'm a Chicago ashtray. I'm Sharon Ireland. You know tequila. I don't need. I could show them that they are nothing.

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Speaker 1
Universe. Yeah. I'm here to have you. I don't, Hallelujah us.

00:13:37:07 - 00:13:55:18
Speaker 1
I'm actually. I'm gonna move straight. I move straight into the blessing surrounding the Shama here. And so I want to just invite everybody to gather the four corners of your seat. If you have them.

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Speaker 1
And hold them in your hand. One hand if you can. If you can find all four corners and they can go in one hand and you can hold them with love, you know, just.

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Speaker 1
Squeeze them tight. You know, we kiss these city. We hold these seats. We wrap ourselves in these tips. It.

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Speaker 1
I'm going to talk, in a couple of minutes about, Actually, I learned I see you this morning. We, we like we we witnessed a hard thing the other day, and I would say, like, a hard moment for the Jewish people, for all the individuals who were present for this awful thing that happened. I don't want to get too much into it in this moment as we are going into, this particular prayer, but just to say, the, the result of it being a whole bunch of guilt, you know, like survivor guilt and, you know, the person speaking, it was like a particular individual sharing his experience of recovering from trauma

00:14:59:16 - 00:15:24:09
Speaker 1
and he said, like, basically at first and throughout the, throughout the, the first period of time, after all, all of the trauma sort of had happened. He found himself using drugs, alcohol, you know, not being himself, not being kind to friends and family. Just.

00:15:24:11 - 00:15:53:03
Speaker 1
Dealing and coping in ways that are totally understandable. And also, we're taking him down a path of destruction of self destruction, you know, along with all of his relationships. And he said I was never a religious person, but belief in God in a higher power, something I something that makes it so that I am never alone, something that makes it, someone who makes it so that I am always cared for no matter where I am.

00:15:53:03 - 00:16:15:06
Speaker 1
I'm not ever alone, he said. That completely changed my life. He said, is it true or not? I don't care. He said, I don't care. All I know is it makes me a better person. And all I know is God has actually taken me out from that dark place and brought it, brought me to a place where I can now share my story with you.

00:16:15:06 - 00:16:40:16
Speaker 1
I've been sober for 12 months and, you know, and counting. And so I, I want to put this here as we gather our kids and in a moment, as we affirm the divine oneness, that, okay, we're all in a spiritual community here, you know, we're quote unquote religious people. And however you want to define it because, like, you're up at eight in the morning praying, you know, it's you're more religious than like 90% of Jews in America.

00:16:40:18 - 00:17:01:16
Speaker 1
Okay, maybe not 90, but a lot most. And I still think the God thing is hard for a lot of us. Oh, what do we mean when we say it? Do I believe, do I not believe? What is faith mean? And I just, I just want to put out there sometimes, like the leap of faith is exactly that.

00:17:01:18 - 00:17:34:07
Speaker 1
But it puts you in touch with something bigger and more buoyant and, more embracing than it's possible to get to with only only the hard, cold, rational mind. And that that can make us better people, especially when we do it in dialog with one another. So holding all these said, see the rational, the irrational, the things we understand about the world, the things we don't understand about the world.

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Speaker 1
It mentions that serenity Shabbat, I think Shabbat sort of honoring, honoring the sobriety journey, I'm pretty sure. But you can say more about that in a moment, Emma. But we're going to go into the shimmer holding all of this just with so much compassion and so much love.

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Speaker 1
For ourselves, for the world around us, for our fellow human beings, our fellow Jewish people, our fellow people suffering. Our planet. Everything. Holding it all in love. There I have a Rattata and I have maestra.

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Speaker 3
And there I have.

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Speaker 1
I cover and close our eyes.

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Speaker 3
Shimmer.

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Speaker 3
Yes. Don't, Hello? Hey. You know.

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Speaker 3
Don't,

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Unknown
Give about that.

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Speaker 1
You know, and for, for me, I have to, let's use this as our healing prayer this morning, and you shall love. And I'll play. I'll play that beautiful tune. And I've had to heal atom. So pretty is your dropping names in the chat.

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Speaker 1


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Speaker 1
And you will love.

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Speaker 3
They, have tied it as an eye and do have some.

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Speaker 3
That hung here, that, there was a whole Nazareth, over from your death.

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Unknown
They, have ties.

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Speaker 3
At, De Niro s,

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Unknown
Whole live,

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Speaker 3
All the soul. Nazareth, however, harm your death.

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Unknown


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Unknown
They,

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Speaker 3
Have to act. I don't I though I suppose you will love the Lord your God with all your mind, with all your strength, with all your heart, all live, for overhaul. Not sure how the formula that, in your home and on your way when you lie down and when you rise up, you will bind them as a sign up on your health.

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Speaker 3
Teach them to your children to place them on the door, post of your house and on your gates, and you will, and we will, we will.

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Unknown


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Unknown
They, have.

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Speaker 3
That died on, the,

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Speaker 3
Their whole live up, overhaul. And I should have a horrible death.

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Speaker 3
Refresh my mind.

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Speaker 1
To everybody who's on your list. My goodness. Lots of folks are thinking about this morning, and, God, mamas in and out of the hospital. God, friends, we're praying for. Oh, my gosh, folks who have been. Oh my gosh, in in Ice detention facilities. And people struggling with all manner of physical and mental and emotional struggles and just sending so much love.

00:22:05:15 - 00:22:10:09
Speaker 1
And maybe think about sending a text later today if you know the person.

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Speaker 3
You know.

00:22:11:21 - 00:22:58:27
Speaker 1
Can receive it and would appreciate it, and sending a refresh them. Complete healing and recovery to and Merle and to Linda Hassey koans and, everybody who needs a prayer. I mean, all right, so, let's see. I think I mentioned a few weeks ago that I am in, I'm in a group. I'm in like a she call it like a cohort with the Institute for Jewish Spirituality that is called, I'll just show you this.

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Speaker 1
I'll show you the headline here.

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Speaker 1
Mindful Jewish leadership in the face of anti-Semitism, trauma informed practice for healing and wise response. And so, what you can see on the screen here is like we did session one that was sort of like larger frameworks for how antisemitism has functioned historically, how it shows up in different societies, how you know, it targets Jews, sort of.

00:23:28:15 - 00:23:47:09
Speaker 1
It's not that it's it's not that it's, you know, like a fully distinct thing from other kinds of racism and xenophobia and bigotry because, of course, like all of those things are real and all of those things function in ways that harm people. But the way anti-Semitism functions is actually sometimes different and quite often different, from other forms of racism.

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Speaker 1
And so in that first session, that's what we talked about. In the second session, we talked about ancestral Jewish trauma and how it shows up in our, bodies in the way we act, you know, in sort of irrational fears. We might have, or responses to things that seem strange. And so I'll, I'll stop the share for just a second here.

00:24:18:12 - 00:24:48:10
Speaker 1
What this brought up for me, reading over some of this, and I'll share. I'll share some more in a minute. Is something like what we see in this week's Torah portion with Jacob and Esau. This week we meet Isaac's children and we get to know them. And Esau is this like man of the. Oh, let's see, Meredith, I was at for parent teacher of oh my gosh, Meredith, we are sending you we are sending you prayers.

00:24:48:13 - 00:25:10:07
Speaker 1
Okay. We're sending you prayers. Where are you? Where? Wherever you are. I'm excited for you. And we're sending you we're sending you prayers. That's really, really exciting for you. Yeah. Okay. All right, everybody, keep Meredith in mind on Monday, even if we're not meeting for minyan, which, which we won't be officially, because, we're on a break.

00:25:10:07 - 00:25:38:15
Speaker 1
But if anybody from this room wants to lead. Wonderful. Now is a great time for me to mention that on Tuesday of next week, like, I will be in Ireland. Rabbi Steven will be in Greece. Ben Cedar Quest, a teen in our community, will be here and really wants to leave minyan. And so if you want to support a 15 year old in our community who has been like on a real Jewish learning journey and is really excited to teach and learn, he wants, you know, Tuesday here in this minyan space.

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Speaker 1
Okay, back to what I was saying. We meet Jacob and Esau and they are literally in the same womb, and they come out from the get go from the womb. They are wildly different people. You know, Esau is hairy and Isaac and Jacob is, you know, it's smooth. And Esau loves to hunt and to like, do things out in the field.

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Speaker 1
And Jacob is a little bit more of a homebody. He likes to cook, he likes to stay indoors. The rabbis sort of construe Jacob as like a real sort of, scholar and student. And Esau is this, like, brood there? You know, I think they're just different, you know, and it's sort of depending on what you value.

00:26:14:18 - 00:26:36:11
Speaker 1
If you're like one of the rabbis of the Talmud writing a thousand years later and you value scholarship, oh, you map that on to Jacob, the guy who is, you know, the, the, the the progenitor of our lineage. But, you know, if if the rabbis had actually been like football players and, and, hunters, they probably would have been much bigger fans of Esau.

00:26:36:13 - 00:27:19:12
Speaker 1
This is all to say, something happens in the Torah portion wherein Jacob outsmarts Esau. And the result is, I would say, like a cascade of what you might call generational trauma. For Esau and for Jacob, this sort of like, oh, we're moving on. We got the blessing, we got the birthright. And and actually, I want to kind of pause to think about how both receiving, receiving unfairness, you know, kind of like the feeling of unfairness getting cheated out of, you know, a good life or something that feels like it should.

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Speaker 1
You know, everyone's entitled to it, but for whatever reason, like this was not your lot in life. You didn't get it. You didn't get the blessing. It's very it's like so painful. You read at the end because of course, Esau comes in and he says to his father, Isaac, dad, don't you have two blessings? And it's heartbreaking because Isaac can't figure out how to do it, how to give the abundance to both of his children.

00:27:40:23 - 00:27:57:28
Speaker 1
And, you know, and as the reader, you're like, Isaac, come on, this isn't that hard. But it's actually he can't he he he he sort of figures it out. We can look at it in a moment, but but the result is that Esau is just so. His rage is all consuming. And Rebecca, it says to her son Jacob, you better get out of here.

00:27:57:28 - 00:28:16:27
Speaker 1
I think he might kill you. You go, go, go, go. Like when you know when things are quieter, I'll send for you. But you get out of here. And so Jacob leaves. And so Jacob, the one who, you know, sort of has this the cunning, the trickster, you know, he sort of inherited that from his mom, who was in the house of Lavon, who was like the trickster guy.

00:28:16:27 - 00:28:55:29
Speaker 1
He's the guy who, you know, as we know, does, you know, sort of wife switch when Jacob wants to marry, you know, wants to marry Rachel, and instead he gets tricked into Leah. All right, that's in future weeks. In any case, there's a side of the family that's very cunning. And that uses its wits and smarts to be deceitful and get what they want, which is like a really adaptive strategy sometimes, and also can really get you into trouble emotionally, morally, and, and so rather than thinking about like Jacob good, Esau bad, I kind of just wanted to observe that you can be grown in the same womb, raised in the

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Speaker 1
same house, subject to the same parents, and somehow have completely different ways of responding to the world, you know, completely different ways of receiving, moments of unfairness, moments of disappointment. And I just kind of wanted to observe that, and, and notice how that's part of the Jewish ancestral trauma journey is both sort of being treated unfairly, but also incredible resilience and resourcefulness.

00:29:28:03 - 00:29:39:20
Speaker 1
Put down the hand. Incredible resilience and resourcefulness. That's also part of the story. So,

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Speaker 1
So here we go. I just I wanted to I wanted to just show us a poem here and then play us a tune. And. Oh, here it is, 832. So we'll also do Kaddish. Chateau mourners. Kaddish. This is a simple poem.

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Speaker 1
Called Dreaming of Home. And this is, by the way, on the heels of paragraphs and paragraphs of, book. From from two different books. A book by Rabbi Theresa Firestone called The Wounds into wisdom and a book by rest smart monarch. My grandmother's hands radicalized trauma and the pathway to mending our hearts and bodies.

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Speaker 1
So you can look for both. But here's this poem. It's by Merle Feld. She's an American Jewish poet. Is there anybody who wants to read this out loud? I thought, who would read this out loud? Dreaming of home.

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Speaker 1
Okay, I'll read it.

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Speaker 1
Dreaming of home. We want so much to be in that place where we are respected and cherished. Protected. Acknowledge, Nurtured, encouraged and heard. And seen. Seen in all our loveliness. In all our fragile strength and safe. Safe in all our trembling vulnerability. Where we are known and safe. Safe and known. Is it possible?

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Speaker 1
Let's take a moment to return to the breathing we did right at the beginning, sitting up a little bit straighter, breathing deeply into our belly.

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Speaker 1
Seen in all our loveliness and all our fragile strength. Safe in all our trembling vulnerability. Where we are known and safe. Safe and known. Is it possible?

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Speaker 1
So we'll do Kaddish at home right now. Mourners Kaddish. And then, I'm going to put on a song after that. And then happy to keep talking, keep processing, see where the conversation takes us. We find mourners Kaddish here.

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Speaker 1
I'm seeing all of the names of all of the people we love so much, showing up one by one in our chat. I'll say them out loud.

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Speaker 1
Dave. Sufi. Norman. Gibi. Levin, Tom. John. Floyd. Keane, Holly. Fresh, Barry. Cos her wine tribe, Leonard. Simon, Eve Levy, Marcia Pepper it.

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Speaker 1
Steven. Emily. Wynn. Rabbi. Roy. Walter. Is there anybody else you're thinking of for goddess? And is there anyone who wants to lead us this morning?

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Speaker 5
I'll be happy to lead.

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Speaker 1
Thank you. Yeah. He's a hero. Natalie. Rama. All their memories be blessings.

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Speaker 5
It's all youth. Panache of April. Vom me Yamaha diva Rocky road. Maybe I'll leave them off. Okay, but my phone will be on me and applying. It'll be just right. Yeah, but I'll go with melancholy. Female rule man. I mean, you're above all the wrong as well, so let me admire it. Baroque fish to bath with the beach.

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Speaker 5
Mom, it does say to drive you to Levy, to love. She made good shop. Fruitful and loving cold beer fat harvest your I time to have an estimate that on me. Rain bitten mom came on me. I'm in a salama rainbow mansion on the same lane. It'll be a voice for an eight year old family. I'm an obsession of all liberal love.

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Speaker 5
Who? Yeah, sociable. Elena coleus. Right now I'm coyote Bill, and you grown on me. I mean.

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Speaker 1
I mean, may all their memories be blessings. All right, well, here's where I wanted to. I wanted to close out today with this tune from Ali Halpert. And, here are the here are the lyrics. Oh, as I play this here, I'll leave the lyrics up here so you can see them. And, have a beautiful day, everybody.

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Speaker 1
Can you all hear it?

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Unknown


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Unknown
Oh.

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Unknown


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Unknown
We are.

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Unknown
The ones I broke up this song for just today.

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Unknown
I love the. Light.

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Unknown
We are beautiful people. The wires are broken.

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Unknown
We know that we are not under the. La la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la.

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Unknown
They have taken the universe. They have taken the mountains. Thoughts is a whole another. La la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la. La la la. Divide us. We run out of my.

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Unknown
We know the truth. Never will be free I just don't I say this is where the sun.

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Unknown
We are beautiful people are the ones I wrote a la la la la. You say the hurt us.

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Unknown
Oh, I love us.

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Unknown
Oh. The, said the LA times. Oh. We, Certain times. Oh, the end of the love I said oh la la la la la la la la. Oh, that's a double degree of the morning. Tried to go, I said.

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Unknown
The other.

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Unknown
We are.

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Speaker 3
Beautiful.

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Unknown
Keep up the love. Our hearts are broken up. We sing.

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Speaker 3
For us. Stars.