Modeh Ani Three Ways

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Welcome, everybody. Welcome, everybody who's…. Here, for the….

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Millionth time, you can't even count how many times you've come to Minion, and….

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Welcome to the folks who are here for the… is anybody actually here for the first time?

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I am. Liz Berkey.

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Ed and Mishkan's Morning Binion, or… who is? Yeah, well, so I didn't want to out you, but I also, sometimes people come on other days of the week, and, you know, and I don't want to be like, oh, you're new, and actually, like, no, I'm new to you, because you've been here on Tuesday.

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So, good morning! Good morning, good morning! Glad to have you with us.

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Morning. Thrilled to be here.

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Yeah, alright, so friends, let's take a… let's, like, sit up a little bit straighter, or….

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You know, in whatever position you're in. Um, closing your eyes….

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Just taking a few breaths of arrival. Unsettling into the space that you're in, so if you're seated, to sit up a little straighter, if you're in a different position, just….

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Trying to get in whatever position allows you to breathe most comfortably.

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Relax your shoulders….

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Moda.

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Ooh, I thought….

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Chef has a…. Tabby.

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Yeesh my….

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Niche, man.

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Seeing the… seeing the little chant right above the Armo Dani.

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This one, um…. Rabbi Rachel Goldberg.

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Brought to us, and she started doing this with us. When she was, I mean, probably over a year ago, and she was still sitting in Jerusalem.

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Singing morning light, shining through my window across my pillow, clear and bright, which, you know, the funny thing was, like, for her, it was 3 in the afternoon.

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But she's now living in Ashland, Oregon, and she just sent me a note the other day saying I had my first davening team.

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Rehearsal. Oh, can I get rid of the AI bot? I actually, I think it….

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Belongs to someone. It says it's a note-taker for someone.

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I do not know how to do that.

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It's the Otto note-taker for…. Um.

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So I… I just… I don't know how to do that.

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In the chat, you hit read stop, and it should stop.

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Is that Barb?

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I don't…. Read, stop.

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But I'll do that. Yeah.

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Can somebody else do that? Because I don't know what that is or how to do that. You don't have to explain it to me, you could just do it.

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So you can go into the participants.

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You could just do it if you can. Great. Um….

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I think you can go into the participants and…. Make it go….

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Do I have to be the one to do this?

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Well, right, but sometimes other people, like, I think we're pretty relaxed with hosting.

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You're the host.

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Here, uh… mute all, invite all, no. Okay?

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It's Barb's notetaker, BN. But you might really be in the car and taking notes or something. I don't know.

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I mean, right, for some people, it's just an automatic thing that happens.

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I know someone.

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So you want me to…. Okay, remove.

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Say goodbye to Barb's note-taker.

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Fine. Remove. Okay.

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Okay, alright, okay. I'm sorry, that doesn't feel good to me to….

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Make somebody's note-taker go away, but also, what was it doing? I wasn't seeing on my screen what it was doing.

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To you. That was annoying? What was happening?

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It takes notes, and then afterwards it emails everyone who was in the Zoom.

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Ridiculous. It's like it gets everybody's email.

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Oh, wild.

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It also… it also does video. It records the video, and takes video snapshots.

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Well, is there a Barb who's in here? Today?

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So….

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So I think that's the, like, that's what I'm confused by. I don't actually see the person.

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To whom this bot is attached.

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Yeah, that is kind of creepy, I agree with…. All right.

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Okay, great, cool. Um, uh, and we will get to the bottom of this another, another time.

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Great. Um, anyway, back to… back to Rachel Goldberg creating a davening team for her small community.

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In Ashland, Oregon. And….

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And just, you know, sitting in Jerusalem, where, you know. She's, uh, a person would not….

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Necessarily think to Davin in English. With their, you know, community here in Chicago, um, first thing in the morning. But the idea being, you know, sometimes we actually need to state our.

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Intentions, or what brings us to show up to pray in the morning.

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Um, it's helpful to do it in the language we understand, even if it's really actually quite comforting to.

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Pray in a language that is our, like, ancestral, ancient language connecting us to, you know, thousands of years of other people who have used that language.

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But, um, I'm gonna sing… I'm gonna sing these words. This, like, little morning intention.

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And I just want to invite you. To think about what your intention is for this day.

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Whatever time zone you're in. Um, Eastern, Central.

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Uh, Western, some other country. Um, anywhere in the world. Whenever one is listening to this, because sometimes people are listening on the….

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On the podcast later. Um…. And just go ahead and share, like, what it is that you need.

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Um…. What it is that you need to….

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Set as a… set as a focus or intention for yourself today.

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Um. And how this davening will help you get there.

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Oh my god, I forgot Mountain. I'm sorry, Roberta. Morning light.

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Shining through my wind… I'm actually, I'm also gonna stop here. I'm gonna stop here. I'm already seeing, like, what could be an interesting conversation.

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Uh, if it were a conversation happening in the chat, and I'm gonna ask us to not go there, because, uh, like, that would be an interesting conversation.

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And it'll be incredibly distracting to me if we're having what is an interesting conversation about privacy.

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Versus accommodation. When we don't know who, like, who this bot belongs to, um, and what its purpose is, and maybe it is a… I'm sure it is, actually, probably a commendation for somebody. I don't know who it is, nobody's talked to me about it.

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Um, and I, I don't… I don't really want to…. Follow this thread, because we don't actually know that much about anything right now. Um, so I… I'll just ask folks to pause that conversation and.

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Pick it up, either when you can have it in person, or when we have more information.

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Thank you. Okay. Um.

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Morning light. Shining through my window.

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Cross my pillow. Clear and bright. Wake up in the morning.

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Give thanks and laugh.

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Gaza! Have the strength to rise.

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Grateful am I. As I said before you….

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Living Spirit. Of the word….

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The soul you gave me. You're a great faith in me. May I be grateful.

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May I be good. Lord Danny.

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Differente.

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F as I tell.

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Nichmatti.

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Rabbi Amuna Takai.

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The hemline. Rabbi Munat.

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Morning light…. Shining through my window.

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Cross my pillow. Clear and bread.

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Wake up in the morning. Give thanks and laugh.

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Have the strength to rise.

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Alright, these are all great intentions. And….

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Oh, might as well to have Noah, excited for you. Do you want to give us a preview?

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A violet's Hebrew name? You don't have to tell us the name, maybe you can give us a hint.

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Well, her English, or her first name is, um…. Related… is sort of a multi-reason name, and her middle name is….

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Based on her story. And I….

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Oh, wow. Which, if you don't know her story, that's not much of a hint.

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Right. Well, I will, uh… I will, uh, mention it, um, next week.

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Probably each day that I'm in Minion for the people who have not, uh.

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Who have not seen it.

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Alright, well, great, you'll tell us next week. Yeah, alright.

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Yep.

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And just seeing some other intentions in here. Grateful to not take for granted that God restored my soul to me today. Tahila Amen Ameen.

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New medications seeming to work so you can stand up without falling. God bless!

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Hope that continues. Your intention to be compassionate with yourself, to help your son move into his first apartment in New York!

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To be grateful for each moment during this day. Oh, wow, save her time with your partner before you leave on a month-long work trip!

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I want to hear more about that, Linda. Um, that's a long work trip.

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Um, but yes, and man, I mean. Alright, grateful to feel present.

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Alright, so this is from Psalm 30.

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Um, to you, I call out. To Adonai, I plead. Shema Adonai, listen to me.

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God, Honaini, be kind to me. God. Help. Me.

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And then there's another line that's further down in the Psalm that says.

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Turn my morning into dancing, my sackcloth into celebration clothes that I should continue to.

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Be joyful, and worship and celebrate. So, may we….

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May we find within ourselves the inner resources to be able to turn the frown upside down, to be able to….

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Find joy in the midst of the storm.

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I don't know cry.

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Adonai.

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Shema, I don't know.

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I don't I hate it early.

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Dearly.

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Osaily.

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Take that cavana, that intention of…. Transformation….

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Of alchemy, inner alchemy. Of mourning and to celebration.

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Of aimlessness and despair into. Purpose and focus.

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So, we stand, if you are able. Um, then, oops.

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Go right into…. That.

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I turn and face east. Feel free to unmute and respond.

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Rilha Rah!

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Go ahead and mute again.

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Hamraham Rachhem. Ahmed.

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Be a Java. Trying with all our abilities, all our faculties, all our….

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Intellectual, emotional capacities. To maintain….

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Awareness of, focus on breathing in, breathing out, aha va, love.

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That our eyes may be enlightened. With these teachings that our hearts may cling in closeness.

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To one another, to Torah, to goodness, to the idea of….

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Unifying everything that feels so very disparate. Ula ira at Shemecha.

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With a sense of both love and. Awe, fear, intensity….

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Man, the loan baed, and we will not, therefore, feel ashamed.

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Because we will have a sense of holy…. And purpose, and trust.

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Nagila venism. One of these days, we are gonna rejoice and dance in the feeling of being fully.

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Saved, fully redeemed, and we gather the four corners of our tzitzit, but have yenu.

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Be a Java. Baruch Hattanai.

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Close our eyes… hold that sit-see it over our eyes. Take a deep breath.

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Shima Isra'll…. Adonai Eloheno.

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I don't know….

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Adonai elocha.

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Bashivitacha, overlach the Chava Darech. The Shah Bacha of Kumecha.

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The Hayu Le Chotafod Bein Enecha.

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This second paragraph, this idea about collective fate. Which, you know, I think we've talked about. The reform movement for a long time just completely chopped this out of the sea door.

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Because they thought, well, we don't like that. Or we don't believe that, you know, we don't believe in a god of reward and punishment, the idea that if you do good, then God rewards you. If you do bad, then….

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You know, God withholds the rain. Like, wow, what a simplistic, childish theology, you know, as if… and of course, like.

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I think in the new seed door, they've put it back, or at least in certain places.

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But the idea being…. You know, look, like, one person.

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Texting and driving on their phone, or driving drunk. On the highway, that….

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Hits another car, and then there's a 20-car pileup. And now there's traffic for miles and miles and miles. There is such a thing as collective karma. You know, where collective consequences.

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Um, when we do things that are not aligned with. Our highest and best way of operating as individuals, and certainly as societies.

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Um, and as we know, much of Torah is metaphor, and some of it is.

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Actually, like, doesn't really require too much metaphorizing. In order to understand what it's saying, and to know that there's a deeper truth, even if you….

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Even if you don't like it. Um, so I wanted to read this today in English.

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Um, as our… as our, uh…. Great country, um, is making decisions that will have.

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Great and grave consequences for many, many, many people. Um, you know, a couple individuals in a room.

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Making decisions that will affect many, many, many people, and. Concentric circles outward and outward.

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Um, and hope and pray that, um. That everyone can understand the consequences and collective consequences of our collective action.

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If you then obey the commandments that I enjoin upon you today, loving God, the Boundless One.

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And serving her with all your heart and soul. I will grant reign for your land in season.

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The early rain and the late. You will gather in your new rayin and wine and oil, and I will also provide.

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Grass in the fields for your cattle, and thus, you will eat to your fill.

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Be careful not to be lured away to serve other gods and bow to them.

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For the one's anger will flare up against you, shutting the skies, so there will be no rain for the ground.

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And it will not yield its produce, and you will soon perish from the good land, the boundless one is assigning you.

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Therefore, impress my words upon your heart. Bind them as a sign upon your hand, and teach them to your children. Let them serve as a symbol on your forehead. Teach them.

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Recite them, and when you stay at home, and when you're on your way, when you lie down and when you rise up, inscribe them on your gates.

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To that end, your children may endure on the land, the eternal sword to your ancestors.

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To assign them, as there is heaven over the earth. Yeah, Emmett just said, I like to think of this passage as our environmental imperative.

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Yeah, like, the idea that the actual Earth responds to our behavior.

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Um, which we now know, like, we know now is true.

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They, at the time, also knew. Just because they didn't have modern Western science, I think for, I don't know, at least a good 100, 150, 200 years.

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Modern, you know, modern Jews just dismiss this stuff. Oh, well, whatever, that was… those were just ancient, primitive people saying ancient, primitive things.

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And now we, of course, know how absolutely. Prescient and, um, much more in tune with the Earth, its rhythms, and our impact on it.

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Our ancestors were. Um, okay. I'm gonna take this moment now for a healing prayer.

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I'm gonna go into Mihamocha. Um, take this moment to just share who it is you're praying for, thinking about this morning.

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Hmm….

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Oopsie. Alright.

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Alright, so, Sisera, thank you for your list, so complete. Catherine's daughter, Patton in my list, Beverly Cross, yeah….

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Andy Allen, Jacob Drumfeld. Yes, our feverish earth, Sloan.

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Shane Minion, folks in need. Palmari and her parents, P.F. Newman, Dahlia Eriksentra.

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Billy and Lynn, anyone whose name should be on my list or in my heart, Nachman Ben Rivka.

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Aiden, then, inshalom, ben Avra Mavinu Vasari Meinu. Uh, when he, um, Gottlieb.

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Rivka Chaim. All of the disabled people.

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Where I'm just, oh, cool die because of the reallocation of funds away from healthcare into things like policing.

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Everyone who needs it that I may not know about. Dave Sufian, Liz Herrick, everybody on Glenn's list.

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And just really, this morning. For all of the people who really… who know that, um….

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This legislation will have an impact on. Their nutrition, their healthcare.

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Um, and we'll leave them worse, not better. Um, and the Earth, the Earth fits into that category as well.

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All of the projects, um, to create renewable energy. That are being re….

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Reassigned or, you know, just scrapped on the altar of oil and gas.

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Um…. My heart's, like, breaking this morning in many ways, as I imagine many… for many of us it is.

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Um, and so we come to this prayer, Michhemucha. Because, uh, our people have been scared before.

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Of not making it to the other side. And our tradition says.

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Can't think that way. Gotta wake up every morning and remember that we always….

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Have the ability to cross the sea. And if you give up, then you won't. You know?

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Was it Wayne Gretzky, you miss 100% of the shots you don't take?

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So… you…. You stay on the far edge of 100% of the seas you don't cross, or don't try to cross, or don't put a foot in, so….

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Nora he alone. All safely.

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Nora to he alone. Fella….

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Shiracha Dasha!

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As ifataya.

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Hey, I'm everyone. There, I'm a roar.

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I don't know him low.

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I don't know.

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Refer Shalema to everyone whose name was said. And everyone whose name we didn't say….

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But we're thinking about this morning. For all of the children in Gaza and in Israel.

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Who are growing up thinking this is normal. Can we imagine….

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Completely different reality, where…. Piece is what is normal.

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Can we? Let's try.

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Alright. My goodness, it became 8.30 very quickly. Um, so, I want to make sure that we say Kadish Yetom, Mourner's Kaddish.

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For those who have to go at 8.30. Um, and then….

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I thought we'd study a little Torah, um, because the section… there's a lot of good stuff in this week's Torah portion.

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Um, in one thing in specific. Like, something I talked about at High Holidays last year.

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Which is grief, and how we…. Metabolize our grief, and when we don't, and we instead….

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Take it out as anger. Um…. So, um, so that'll be for people who want to stay on after we say Kaddish.

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Um, we'll look at. Section of Torah where… that I, uh, spoke about.

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And high holidays last year. Um, that shows up this week.

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So, David Sufian. Barry Koss.

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Who else are we saying Kaddish for this morning? You can say it, or just put it in the chat.

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Cheryl Rosenberg…. Joan Curlow.

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Leonard S. Simon, oh, your dad lives, yes. Andy Sancin, Janine's husband, Sheldon Tabowski.

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Is there anybody who'd like to lead us in Kaddish this morning?

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Um, I can lead.

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Carlos Jinnish Sergio Carlo. Alright. Thank you. May all their memories be blessings.

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Amen.

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I mean….

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You skedadash, nay rabba. Oh, please feel free to join me.

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Harvey…. Bmru, um….

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Israel. Bagala, Isman? Amen.

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And….

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Barat.

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I'm waiting…. Savvy.

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I mean, Hayes?

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On my, uh…. Yes, for us to ask for art, yes for us.

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I'll maybe say, we need to drive. I'm not distracted.

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Prf. She made her birthday, you know.

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If I have reached above, we par with Romain. So, the retailer.

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Business day, business….

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Viehaila, I mean.

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For who? Color had to have a shirt, uh….

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A sub and FMS…. The Alma, the route, Amen.

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I mean….

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I mean….

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Amen.

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Yeah, hey, Shlomat, Rabbah, Minshemayh, Bethaim, Elainabiliswahel. Amen. Jose Mermaid.

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Oh, sorry, let me…. Say shalom, memorable.

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I mean….

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Okay, farm, blah blah.

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Who knows?

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Yeah, it says Chevron. And we knew that I'll call you straight out, but I'll call you straight to your bell, they know I'm….

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Ooh, yeah, I'll call you.

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Ldmro.

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Amen.

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I'm a….

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Excellent. Yes, shalaam.

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I mean, that was… that was the holiest cacophony I have ever cacophoned.

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It's beautiful.

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Um, you know what? I wanted to go back, Linda, because you said you've been reading this via half to every, like, do you do this every day?

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Or it's just, like, it's what… it's what you read when you read?

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Um, it's been close to every… it's been close to every day, I think, especially as, like, my antidote to the….

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News, when things feel really hard, this refrain of, like, another world is possible.

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Wow. Would you, um, would you read this to us? I will, I'll, like, I'll put it on the screen so people could see it. Would you be willing to read it to us out loud?

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Uh, yeah, something I keep coming back to every day.

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Yeah, I would love to. I would love to. Thank you.

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Alright, hang on. Alright. Mm-hmm.

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Um, it's in this…. Absolutely beautiful, Sudor I have, so I read it from this usually, and it's slight excerpts, but there is a URL version.

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Is that… is that Aurora Levin's Morales' Sea Door? Is it a different… does she… like, what is it?

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Yeah, she writes a lot in it. I think there's a few other people. I can see if I can drop that link in there.

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Yeah, what is it? What's the name of the sedur?

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It is, uh, Patak Levy. A suit booter, yeah.

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It's really… yeah, I really, really love it. But this specific piece, um….

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Beautiful! Thank you.

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Great. Here in… I'll make… can you see it? Is it big enough?

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Yeah, I can read….

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Okay.

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Yeah, perfect, that's great. Say these words when you lie down, and when you rise up. When you go out, and when you return, in times of mourning and in times of joy.

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Inscribe them on your doorpost, embroider them on your garments, tattoo them on your shoulders.

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Teach them to your children, your neighbors, your enemies. Recite them in your sleep.

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Here, in the cruel shadow of empire, another world is possible.

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Thus spoke the prophet Rochdalton. Altogether they have more death than we, but altogether we have more life than they.

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There's more bloody death in their hands than could have… than we could ever wield, unless we lay down our souls to become them.

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And then we will lose everything. So instead. Imagine winning. This is your sacred task. This is your power. Imagine every detail of winning.

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The exact smell of the summer streets in which no one has been shot.

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The muscles you have never unclenched from worry. Gone soft as newborn's skin, the sparkling taste of food when we know that no one on Earth is hungry.

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That the beggars are fed. That the old man under the bridge and the woman wrapping herself in thin sheets in the backseat of a car.

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And the children who suck on stones nest under a flock of roofs.

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That keep multiplying their shelter. Lean with all your being towards that day, when the poor of the world shake down a rain of good fortune out of the heavy clouds, injustice rolls down like waters.

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Defend the world in which we win as if it were your child. It is your child. Defend it as if it were your lover. It is your lover.

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When you inhale and when you exhale, breathe the possibility of another world into the $37.2 trillion cells of your body until it shines with hope.

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Then, imagine more. Imagine rape is unimaginable. Imagine war is a scarcely credible rumor.

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That the crimes of our age, the grotesque inhumanities of greed.

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The sheer and astounding shamelessness of it, the vast fortunes made by stealing lives.

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The horrible normalcy of it came to have is unimaginable to our heirs.

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The generations of the free. Don't waver. Don't let despair sink its sharp teeth into the throat of which you sing.

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Escalate your dreams, make them burn so fiercely that you can follow them down any dark alleyway of history and not lose your way.

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Make them burn clear as a starry drinking gourd over the grim fog of exhaustion, and keep walking.

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Hold hands, share water. Keep imagining, so that we and the children of our children's children may live.

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I mean…. Not a little bit.

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I mean, I mean….

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Beautiful. Thank you for dropping that in the chat. Um… yeah, this is… people should know about this… this poet. She writes beautiful stuff.

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And I like that I've seen this before here. She says, poetry is labor. Respect it, and donate.

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Um, so I just noticed this link here. I'll put this… I'm all of a clamped, so beautiful. Yeah, so good.

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Alright, well, you had dropped this in there earlier, and…. Patakly B. Sidor. So good, thank you.

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Thank you, Linda.

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Beautiful, thank you for sharing. And…. Rob Luthi, did you just… what did you just say? Respect it and donate?

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And what I heard…. Was, I think, what you meant was donate to the….

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Um, yeah, uh-huh.

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Yeah.

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You know, to the poetry thing, what I heard, which is an interesting lesson that I hear what I want to hear, I heard Donate, like, write a poem.

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Uh-huh. Oh, yes.

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And, um, and what's interesting is when you said about the Torah portion being about.

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Grief, um, I wrote my first poem recently. About that. So I… the little nudge I got was.

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Can I read this poem as part of our Torah study?

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And when… so I heard you say donate, I was like….

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I don't know. It's interesting. I am, I am.

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Are you offering to donate your home to our tourist study? Oh, okay, Tehila.

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I would like… I'm terrified, and God is. Yeah, so this came out.

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I've never written a poem before. Would you prefer that I read it, or type… try to copy it into the chat?

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Uh, do you wanna…. Read it and copy and paste. Like, I don't… I don't want to spend a bunch of time, like, futzing.

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Right, right, right, okay, okay. Yeah, I don't even know how to copy it, so I'll read it, and then….

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Like, so….

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Figure that out. Okay!

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And abundantly alliterative adage. Automatically appeared.

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As ancient ancestral Abuse Awareness arrived. Announcing answers aloud.

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After allowing ample asking. For way too long, I continued the crazy commitment to cowardly corroborate.

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With my creatively chaotic. Constant companion, cleverly called, quote.

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Concurrent anger and depression. Until finally….

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Sweet surrender, somehow. Slowly surfaced.

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Softly sauntering into the safe. Violent, stillness.

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Of sacred sorrow. As I simply sat.

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With her long enough to hear. Her whisper.

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Her birth name is Grief.

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Hmm. Wow. Wow.

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Wow.

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Oh, it's a healer. Yeah, everybody… so what somebody can't, you know, see on the… if they're listening on the podcast is all of the snaps and all of the….

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Uh-huh.

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Uh, like, silent clapping and, you know, people from their screens really giving you a lot of love.

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Means a lot to me that I really believe God. I channeled that through God.

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God channeled that through. Through me, yeah, thank you, thank you.

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I can feel… I could feel that. Yeah, we can feel that.

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That's my donation.

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It's a good donation. Thank you. Wow.

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Beautiful.

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So yeah, now I'd love to hear what the Torah says about unexpressed grief.

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Alright, is that a good transition? Should we do that? Okay, alright. Alright.

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Um, so…. Um, let me pull this up here.

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Uh, wait, hang on, it's not sharing the correct screen. Alright, and also, I think for the folks who are listening.

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After this minion, uh, we're gonna… we're gonna stop the recording here, because otherwise it'll be really long.

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And if folks want to come be part of tourist study, they gotta come… they gotta… they gotta….

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Come in person. Alright, lots of love to those listening later! Have a great week!